Am I Alright?

| choker, sunnies, hoops: H&M | jacket: vintage | dress: H&M | boots: Forever21 | socks: Amazon | 

This post title is brought to you by the Aly & AJ tour last month - it was an incredible show and we had a really great night. But also, a good question I know I'm not the only one asking right now. Not gonna lie - with the hellscape of the world compounded by my own personal bullshit - things feel heavy right now. [Apart from like, heavier things I am working through {how many times can I say heavy?!} there's also the constant - is this what I'm supposed to be doing? Is this where I'm supposed to be at 31?! Am I Alright??] Lately I find myself asking if any of the silly little things I do even matter? Including, keeping this blog? I don't have any answers here, but I have a feeling I'm not the only one thinking similar things, so maybe this first paragraph is just a note of solidarity. 

Some outfit notes, in case baybay, this is what you came for: ok, hello 1994? Or, the 90's in general, I can't be sure. These boots have been my favorite over the last season. They are Forever 21 knock-offs of these Dr. Martens, which is fine, because I've been seriously considering buying the real thing. I do love the heel on these because I always want the extra inches. I've also really been considering buying platform crocs, so can someone convince me one way or the other there? This dress has been another favorite basic lately, I love & wear a lot of black knit dresses, always have, always will. And I love to balance my fast fashion with a vintage jacket! That I will keep literally forever. The story of when I got this jacket is a great one, buy me a drink and I'll share it with you ;) 

What are your plans for the Summer? My year so far has really felt like 1-2 weeks on in Nashville, a weekend+ somewhere else, so I, for one, am looking forward to a chill Summer at home. After my sister's wedding next weekend, that is. (She loves to bitch about how her life story is easily accessible online due to my blog so I guess I'll stop talking about her by name! 🙄) I'm also desperate to plan a beach trip somewhere, but otherwise I'm hoping this Summer brings calm, creative clarity, lots of time in our backyard, oh, and some acting work :))) OH - and my other plan is to turn 31 on Sunday! 

Oh, maybe I do have one answer for you. I asked my therapist for her advice on what to do when things generally feel heavy, and she said, stay present by appreciating simple little joys, and turn off your phone! Solid advice that is always a good reminder. A couple simple joys from my world this week: my egg chair ! a warm puppy, wedding photo prints, kayaking, connecting with my emotional life in acting class. 

I don't mean to make every time I blog these days like, a whole thing, or like an emotional manifesto. But, there are blogs I just always check back in on, no matter how much time has passed, and so I'm like invested in these people's lives, right? Maybe this is that for you? Hi! I'm alright. I hope you are too. 

Photos by Adriane Smith Creative